I am in the process of making a few updates to my blog on the back-end side of things. Our home computer is becoming less and less stable as a server so I am changing over to use Tumblr’s back-end. Doing this is a long process because I want my blog to stay the same since I worked so dang hard on all my customized graphics and layout. So now I am working equally hard to conform to Tumblr without ASP.NET… tricky or rather, time consuming. To add to that, they don’t allow blog imports so all of my (near 500) posts are manually being entered by yours truly. It has been kind of fun taking a walk down memory lane but now I am to my most emotional state - the week before we lost Zachary.
Most of my posts I am just entering without reminiscing, but I had to stop and read a few. One of which was my dream right before we found out Zachary had Hydrops. It is eerie how telling it is on what would happen. Even though I did leave out the part about his big head.
Lots of emotions are flying through me right now.
Crazy Vivid Dreams originally posted 11/1/11.
They have officially begun! And apparently I am not the only one having them… Tyler told me he was dreaming about the baby the other day too. I guess all the excitement has to be released subconsciously.
So last night, I got to meet our son (note that the gender is not even confirmed yet but will be in less than a week!!!) In my dream I gave birth to our son three months early but he was a healthy 8 pound boy with a full head of brown hair. It was soooo strange and there were so many things odd about the dream. Let me tell you.
First, the dream took place at my parents house during the summer but the baby was born on Thanksgiving day which was supposed to only be 3 months early, which it is not going by my true due date of 3/22/12. Second, I was supposed to go to school that day - holiday or not, I am clearly not still in school - but decided not to because I had a feeling I was going to give birth. Just moments after making the decision to stay home, I started getting slight cramps. Next thing I knew I was calling my mom and was having the baby.
The baby simply popped out - easiest labor and delivery on record I’m sure - and then after the baby was born, I delivered four puppies! WTF?!?! My subconscious must have known that puppies were the only things born in my parent’s house and they usually came in litters of four so why the heck not. Nonetheless, they popped out no problem too. I remember thinking that giving birth was so easy for me and that I was lucky that I didn’t have a long, painful delivery.
After the birth, my dream skipped ahead and I don’t know what the heck happened to the puppies but our baby never left the picture. My parents were having a Thanksgiving party which was more like a summer BBQ because it was outside in the warm sun. No one knew I had the baby yet so I was going to get to tell them all there. Instead of just coming out with the baby, I called my cousin over - Jen (if you read this) you’ve been making cameos in my dreams lately and I have no idea why, but feel lucky because you are usually my confidant - and I showed her our baby and told her I was going to be telling everyone and making his debut.
Before going out to the masses though, we were sitting with my parents and somehow we decided that the baby had my dad’s ears. Of all things. So after a conversation with my parents, I started calling long distance family before I woke up to my alarm. So I never did get around to introducing our baby to the masses.
Strange, no? Let’s hope labor and delivery is as easy and painless as my dream (ha!) and that the baby does not come three months early because I doubt the outcome would be as happy. And finally, no Tyler, I did not cheat on you with a dog… hahahaha!